Reporting from Workstation 9

This is what I really think

My blog has surprised so many. I was and am fairly surprised, and a little disappointed. Disappointed with myself.

This blog is not public for good reason. I am still trying to figure out my place in the world of economics. What kind of economics India needs? What kind of economics is right? It is a quest that I started at the age of 12 and lost track of in college. I am still disappointed with what I didn't bother learning.

Economics was my first love(sorry boys) and will be my last.

When I start my PhD, I hope to be conversant enough to comment on other's(economists blog) leaving a link to mine. Simple dreams.

Anyway, I feel like giving people some background to how my mind functions. That music, sports, movies and boy's(to a lesser extent) are not all there is to me.

My first big influence was Ayn Rand. At the age of 13, I could not grasp all of what she said. But this was what I got out of her books.That I would be a successful businesswoman one day and my work would come before everything. I would be identified by my work.

The flip side of reading the book at a young age, is that it makes you think the book is how your life will turn out like. I thought I would fall in love with a physicist. I chose boys based on what their career ambition was than anything else. I still cannot get over my immaturity. I look back and laugh.

Yesterday, I picked up the only work of hers I hadn't read. Anthem. She discusses a world of extreme communism and what happens to one man who dares to think different. Her work, though extreme, is in good spirit. It salutes the individual. It gives hope to people like me, that I must allow myself to think for myself and do what I wish to do.

But I cannot truly be different,because a lot of me comes from my family and my culture. I am libertarian in my view of the world. I believe that there should be no rules and laws to inhibit a person's freedom. I think it's alright if somebody dosen't believe monogamy. I think it's alright if people wish to take (dangerous) drugs voluntarily(as long it's not somebody I wish to see live), I don't believe in God-not because I think the individual is God(I depart from Ayn Rand, here), but because there is no scientific proof. I think I will become dust when I die. I believe that I must always be a good person, because the conscience exists and she is very nasty, when you go against her. I believe piracy is alright, and the only way to fight it is to make all knowledge free. The welfare benefit to the world will be far far greater.

But I'm not averse to the idea of a housewife. Because, when I see a baby(girl preferably), I always think of all the wonderful things I can show her, the books I can read for her. I don't think that anyway compromises my belief of women as equal as men. I believe whatever a person wishes to do, clean the house, sweep the roads, teach economics, be a playboy girl, make pornographic videos..they should be free to pursue it. And that everyone deserves that choice. And that is how the world should be.

This is how I think....today

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